Thoughts

More often than not I just want to express myself.

The avenue of choice is words.

As most of you know I am the least eloquent person on the planet. I did not do well in English, I am horrible with punctuations and I like to use commas...A LOT! A goal of mine is to "put IT into words" whatever "IT" is I am not sure. How "eloquent" it will be we will see. But today starts the first post of wordy expression.

Today I am grateful. I am grateful for life, love, trials, consequences, accomplishments, my job, free agency, an amazing and supportive husband, our children, extended family, the best of friends, my savior Jesus Christ and my ever loving Father in Heaven.

Yesterday I was humbled by death and the shortness of life here on earth. As Mackay and I layed our babies to rest I thought about their innocent short lived lives. They are sweet precious babies trying to follow so one day they can lead. It is my duty today as a mother to lead them. Lead righteously, honestly, happily and ly's go on and on. Some days it is overwhelming. As a young gal I could not wait to be a mother. In my head it was going to be so much easier. I get to dress them. I get to tell them what to do. I get raise them how I want them to be raised. It is harder than I had anticipated.

Vaccinations, antibiotics, nursed or formula feed, schooling, friends, food consumption, independence, television watching, limiting electronics, and the fears to come as they get even older.

Each day is a challenge to be the BEST example that I can be. I am learning with them. I have learned that they are always watching and listening. They pick up on your tone of voice and conversations you have. They view the way you treat people especially your spouse. They are my little sponges and this life is to short to not give it my best. It is my promise that each day I will strive to give them my all.

So all in all today I am grateful and humble.

XOXO
B*